Another night spent in the office (until 11.00pm). Work is really a nightmare. All I can do is sigh and suck my thumb and continue with my work. Another option is to kill myself or steal a gun and shoot myself or bang my head against the wall and die. Alright I should really stop cursing myself.

My dear boy came and put 6 bottles of cooling water outside my bedroom window after work and I have been drinking one bottle a day since last Saturday. Finished 6 bottles within 4 days and it's back again.